i <3 u

goodness gracious

Fri, 03 Feb 2006 02:41:59 GMT

i wish i had someone to talk to when i have bad days like this.

=/

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 23:44:31 GMT

THINGS COULDNT BE BETTER THAN THEY ARE RIGHT NOW♥

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 03:04:40 GMT

I FOUND THE MOST BEAUTIFUL GREEN EEL SKIN DOCTOR BAG IN THE WORLD.
I NEED TO GET MY PAYCHECK.
ITS 50 FREAKING DOLLARS- AT AN ANTIQUE STORE.

UGHGHHGHGHG.

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 04:41:35 GMT

I need to get control of my life.
I hate having regrets.
And right now I have like 28348 of them.

its one of those times when you just wish you could jump in a time machine and rewind at least 24 hours and do everything you did differently. i have a tendency to throw everything away at the drop of a hat because i dont THINK about anything. it needs to change.

Christmas again =]

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 18:41:37 GMT

So far everything has been good.. got a lot of the things i wanted.. and i still have to go to my Grandma's.. hopefully she got me the circle of life necklace =] that would be awesome. But anyways.. im basically done with trying to make things work. seriously, is this really what i want anyways? It's Christmas. I shouldnt be thinking about shit like this. For some reason I feel badly, when i didnt even do anything. idk. i cant do this.. PLUS&&; be somebody's saftey net.

all or nothing.

RIGHT??!

lets not get busted<3

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 19:32:35 GMT

Soo my exams today were actually not that hard. but i was just thinking all day about how much i miss all of my girls. i dont know what is wrong with me.. but i always go hang out with other dumb people [sorry.. lol] and im sick of it. its christmas time now. and i wish i was closer with a bunch of people. and i havent seen my meg in like.... 2 weeks? yeah thats insane. ughhhdjflkjasdflkj

Mon, 12 Dec 2005 03:06:50 GMT

i went to the living christmas tree tonight. i loove that thing soo much. i think ive gone since i was like, 5. it always reminds me of when i was little. i had to fight back tears through the entire thing. just remembering all of the times i had and wishing i could go back. because everything is so f'ed up right now. it was nice to have some time with my grandma, and spend the whole night with God. and i really need to start going to church on sundays. i miss it alot. my stomach feels like its going to hop right out of my mouth at any moment, just because of you. stupid. i hate boys. sorry for wanting to be one of those nice girls, sorry for not wanting to fuck you. sorry you have to go someplace else to get what you want because im just not good enough. im sorry for ever fucking trying or fucking caring for that matter.

AND i have to work on christmas eve =(

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 02:59:53 GMT

i dont know what to do.
i hate myself sometimes.
its like i want everything i cant have.
because when i have it, its just like pssh, whatever.
then when i loose it, its like ohh shit.
i know theres too many problems, and im wayy too complicated to ever have a real relationship
but i still want it because i cant have it.

ugh. what to do?

♥

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 02:28:27 GMT

okay wow i dont know what that was all about. haha.
yeah. im pretty crazy.

♥

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Sat, 12 Nov 2005 22:26:01 GMT

i hate being in such a bad mood.
everyone is happy && im happy for them.
but i would really like to be happy for myself sometime.
i should be out doing something,
considering i have to work all next weekend.
but still theres nothing to do.
i have to go to danielle's house tonight.
my hair is too dark and i dont like it.
the wrong boy keeps on calling.
and i dont want to talk.

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Tue, 08 Nov 2005 04:27:21 GMT

soo how about i am totally crushing on this totally cute guy.
but pssssssh its all wrong AGAIN.

i hate my life.
lol
♥

ughhh

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 22:03:29 GMT

So the only good thing that happened today was that I got a job. At target. So now I can make money to go to Spain. I wish I was Lizzie Mcguire so I could become a famous superstar on my vacation. hah. I hate sitting around all day so bad. I want to go somewhere. And accomplish something. Something important. pssssh. So I got ditched not once today but twice. I dont think the second time was intentional, but seriously. I love how my so called best friend only cares about her boyfriend and acts like shes coming over all day, and then never does. wtf. whatever. I'm so tired of this. I was supposed to get so much done this weekend. Instead I just sat around and ate and watched movies and got fat. woo.

Stole from LaLaLaura<3

Fri, 28 Oct 2005 21:52:24 GMT

× •I N F O R M A T I O N • × •
Name: Caitlin
Single or taken: Single
Sex: Giiirl
Birthday: May 14
Sign: Taurus .. Im a bull
Siblings: Tay-Tay my brother lol
Hair color: light brownish-blonde
Eye color: brown
Height: 5'6 1/2

• × • R E L A T I O N S H I P S • × •
Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: straight
Who are your best friends?: meghan is my most bestest ;), then i <3 kara laura and sam too =]
You have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: NOPE!
What is your longest relationship?: like, 2 1/2 months

• × • F A S H I O N | S T U F F • × •
Where is your favorite place to shop for clothes: abercrombie, charlotte russe, forever 21
Any tattoos or piercings: just ears
What is your most comfortable outfit?: soffees and a tank top
What do you usually wear?: pretty stuff? lol idk

• × • S P E C I F I C S • × •
Do you do drugs?: no!
What kind of shampoo do you use?: well every other day i just redkin ny clarifying shampoo && the other days i use this italian stuff called vaselli or something like that && it smells like heaven
What are you most scared of?: dakr && quiet places
What are you listening to right now?: daddy yankee =]
Who is the last person that you called?: meghan
Who is the last person that called you?: meghan
Where do you want to get married?: in an elaborate european church like mellissa joan hart or in a really small cute chapel or a cute backyard wedding if the person i marry has a cute backyard
What would you change about yourself?: i would make my hair naturally lighter so i wouldnt have to keep re-doing my highlights

• × • F A V O R I T E S • × •
Colors: pink && yellow
To Eat: cookies. any kind of cookies. lol
Movies: horror, chick-flicks, comedies, dramas... basically anything
Animals: poodles!!

• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × •
Given anyone a bath?: yeah my puppies
Smoked? nope
Bungee jumped: no
Made yourself throw up?: not really
Skinny dipped?: yep
Ever been in love?: no
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: hahah yes when i came home at 3 am
Pictured your crush naked?: no i would never!
Actually seen your crush naked?: he's not my crush anymore but i have
Cried when someone died?: yes.
Lied: duh
Fallen for your best friend?: no
rejected someone?: yeah
Used someone?: i would like to say no, but i have
Done something you regret?: yes plenty of times

• × • C U R R E N T • × •
Clothes: orange-ish forever 21 capris, white tank top, hco jean jacket
Music: daddy yankee=love
Annoyance: there's nothing to do tonight
Smell: roses. cause i just sprayed that smell. lol
CD in player: a mix
DVD in player: grease!

• × • L A S T | P E R S O N • × •
You Hugged: tall eddie. lol
You IMed: zach
You yelled at: taylor
You Kissed: mex. haha

• × • A R E | Y O U • × •
Understanding: if i care about somebody, if i dont then im really not
Open-minded: yes
Insecure: not as much as i used to be =]
Hungry: no i ate too many halloween oreos
Smart: YES OF COURSE hehe
Moody: at home
Hard working: sometimes. but sometimes i get discouraged easily. it depends on the thing.
Organized: not really
Healthy: yes =]
Difficult: ?
Bored easily: YES.
Obsessed: with pharrell williams. and frankie j. mmhm.
Angry: no
Sad: i was on tuesday. but not now biiatch.
Happy: yes sirrie =]
Hyper: yess. i had some MD for lunch ;)
Trusting: yeah. too much.

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 00:24:06 GMT

isnt she cute? hahaa.
i want a real piggie.

today sucked.
i guess the hurricane is gone?
its so frezzing outside now!
meg was supposed to come over,
but she didnt. pssh. suprise.

halloweentown is on! woo.

see everybody at school tomorrow =/

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 05:13:32 GMT

My lip is swollen. Like freaking huge. Like I got punched in the face. But i really didnt.
I got a fucking friend speech. Boys are gay and i hate them.
Today was a waste.
except for going to chessie's which was actually fun.
i broke my record though. 3 in one day is pretty fucking pimp im thinking. haha

boys suck.and they should all die.
haha. he is soo cute though.
i really hate beer right now.
ewwwwie.

this made no sence.
hahhahhhhhaaaa

ding dongs && jeprody!!

Sat, 15 Oct 2005 05:31:02 GMT

soo this weekend has been currazzy. saw into the blue last night with kara, nick, devin, john, jamie, and bohne! it was kinda gay. but whatever. got some coldstone CAKE BATTER because they have it again!! YESSSSSSSSS! I got the weirdest phone call too.. Randy Persinger. I havent talked to that kid in like, 2 years. I didn't even know he still lived here. Crazy. && i talked to Meg. Everything's pretty good. Josh is moving back here instead of her going up there. I'm really glad about that. Today i went to Wet&&Wild with Laura & her fam. it was sooo much fun. even though we only got to go for *tres horas* haha && i was michelle for the day ;] duhhh. we met a spanish boy from aruba with a gold tooth and got our picture taken by the paparatzis =] cause were superstars!!! lol. && of couse flirted with a supersexy 23-ish latino guy who was absolutly positivly gorgous in every way possible. he smiled and waved at me && i almost died. lol! but yeah almost didnt make it home. gas is a tricky thing. lOL. now im tired. i might be sneaking out later?? but idk i dont really want to get caught cause then i woudnt be able to go to homecoming with chris tomorrow night!! duhhhh

xoxoxoxoxoxox

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 00:52:54 GMT

So Im totally && completly over it. He was no good for me. I need to get better at figuring these things out. && not being so damn chicken!! So now I have my eye on someone else. A very cute someone else.

AND I NEED A HOMECOMING SHORTISH DRESS FOR SATELITE'S HOMECOMING NEXT WEEKEND!!
HELP!!!

watching grease always makes me happy.

Sat, 08 Oct 2005 04:42:05 GMT

So tonight was freaking AWESOME! Steven came and picked me up and we went to Kara's. && it was flippin sweet of course.

Laura + Merchelle + Kara + Jamie + Cait = FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC!
hehe.

&& guess what tomorrow is???

HALLOWEEN HORROR NIGHTS!!!!

I am soooo excited its going to be sooo much fun!!

so this is the dress im getting..

Tue, 04 Oct 2005 01:41:41 GMT

i have to order it.
and it better fit!!
lol

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 02:53:17 GMT

i love how things are going right now. soo many people are getting the hookup! and im very berry happy for them. and im single. and i really like it. alot. boys are nice. but its so much easier on me not to get attached. its crazy how much happier i feel now that im not stressing over stupid shit that i knew wouldnt work out in the firstplace. i like not needing to have a boy to be happy. its enough just to be me and enjoy my life as it is. no boy is worth making a girl unhappy.

But of course me && Laura are still looking for the HOOKUP =] LMAO

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 02:01:34 GMT

at least im not being ignored, i guess.
but i really want to be the only one.

dont i deserve that?

Cause after we kissed i could only think about your lips..

Sat, 17 Sep 2005 23:06:40 GMT

i probably shouldnt be getting involved in this.
its going to start a shit load of drama.
but hes so cute i just cant help it.
i dont know. i have too much of a thing for boys that are all wrong for me.

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 00:42:07 GMT

Things might just turn out good after all.
Turns out the whole thing was just a big missunderstanding. I think. Hopefully.
I really need to quit expecting the worst out of every little situation that comes my way.
I spent all of Sunday & Monday feeling like shit. I didn't even eat for a day and a half because I was so upset.

THE LITTLE RASCALS IS ON =]
And it gets better.. I just got 2 new magazines! Lucky & TP what what?!

THANK GOD.

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 22:41:51 GMT

im really glad that everyone else is so fucking happy but im not. i feel like shit i have the worst fucking headache of my life. and my friend, friend with benefits, or whatever you wanna call him is being a total asshole and acting like im shit to him. which i guess i am. what do you know .. a girl doesnt put out and all of the sudden she is worthless.

WHAT A FUCKING SUPRISE!
HAHA

good good <3!

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 02:04:32 GMT

What i always wished i would have..
i love how when you say *ill call you back*
you really do

i swear the smallest little things make me happy
its a freaking miracle that all boys are not complete assholes.

lol<3